Ever wonder if you are walking in His will?

There are days where I ask myself this question. If this was His will wouldn’t He be blessing it? Wouldn’t there be people listening? Sure I can blame these thoughts on satan but I don’t give him power over me.

Who am I doing this for? Me? No….I have no physical strength to do this, it would be easier to make the songs stop that keep coming to my head.

Should I press on?

Ha….that’s the question. We are getting so close to being done with this album, Crooked Halo, I will now be able to tell if anyone reads this because this is a spoiler! As we get closer I question myself, my lyrics, my voice, my notes, my intent, and my heart.

In a couple of our songs I talk about that still small voice…..the one that answers yes press on. Then the human part of me thinks okay God I literally have no breath to spare in my broken body, no experience on getting it to the people it needs to get to, no presence on social media to let people know, and all the other excuses I can come up with to give myself an out.

His answer is always press on……well Lord only you can do this because it’s obvious I am not. This is where I need to be though…where it is all taken from my hands and put into His hands. I will press on by finishing the album, doing what little PR I can do and let Him do the rest. Because His power is greater then my own here and I am where I should be.

These have been the passages I am standing on while wrapping this all up:

  8 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.  10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong (2 Corinthians 12:8-12).

Even when my body tells me to quit its too hard, I will attempt to press on. Because it is through my weakness that God shines brighter.