Crooked Halo actually came from a dream. The Lord in my dream told me to write a song for all those who have experienced sexual abuse, human trafficking or who were once the forgotten children of our world. He gave me the name of the song in this dream and promised a bit more….but that will come to pass in time. Right now we are laying down this song Crooked Halo.

The lyrics are….

They say faith of a child
Is the way to go
What about the child
Who does not know

That child who can not believe
Only searching for pain to leave

With a crooked halo
Here she stands
Hands held out
Crying out

What about me!

What about me!

Years of being unseen
Being made to feel unclean 
What about this child
Who was sent to the wild

Given away to what sin brings
Left with the feeling
Of constant spinning
Spinning that seems unending

With a crooked halo
Here she stands
Hands held out
Crying out

What about me!

What about me!

What about my purity
What about me running free
What about the child in me

So blank and hollow 
They have been left to wallow
Something has to change
For these without names

With a crooked halo
Stand and be free
His hands are held out 
Crying you belong to me

You belong to me!

Here is your joy restored
Here is your future to run free
Here is your faith in the God who sees 

Run free

With a crooked halo
Here she stands
Hands held out 
Crying out 

What about me

It’s hard to expect normalcy from those who have walked this path. It sets us apart from the rest of the world….until the realization that Jesus can take that pain, can take the sin put on us and heal the brokenness.

Each one is a precious life. Not to be forgotten or seen any different then anyone else. As you listen to this song our prayer is you allow God to open your eyes and see the hurting people around you and love them as Christ loves. Trauma brings heartache which in turn brings confusion, unhealthy views of self , relationships and loss. Love (His Love) brings light, happiness, certainty and comfort.

To those who are listening and have walked this road. You are seen! You are loved and you are wanted! Let Jesus carry the burdens you are bearing. You are not alone, there are many of us out here learning how to live life in a broken world.

“Here’s your joy restored
Here’s your further to run free
Here’s your faith in the God who see’s” -Crooked Halo

There is freedom living in Christ. “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened.” (Matthew 7:7-8)

If you are currently experiencing abuse reach out to national human trafficking resource center at 1-888-373-7888; Rainn.org 800-656-4673. If you would like to reach out and speak with someone about what you have been through Focus on the Family has pastors and counselors available 1-855-771-4357.

Please share Crooked Halo on your Social Media and other places. We are so grateful for your support and encouragement! By the way it is out and you can find the song on Spotify, YouTube, Pandora, Amazon Music and other music streaming services.

Tracks are getting ironed out and I am getting my air back and preparing for vocals!!! This is so exciting! The last few months have been difficult. I have literally thought about giving this one up.

Then He stepped in and has shown me that I don’t do this in my own strength, obviously because I run out of breath literally in a 30 min time period of singing. I can not do this without His strength. I wouldn’t want to honestly. I don’t want to do life without Him in the drivers seat.

If you have read the blogs before you might remember I let you know I was doing this a different way this go around. We did think before finding our new producer that we would do it all ourselves, well I am eating those words :). Let me tell you a little about our producer….I found him through His Musican’s Pool. He is a gifted young man named Nathan Yake of Insight Music Production. He is taking our ideas and running with them adding so much to them and making this project come alive.

Would you like to hear just a little bitty of what is to come?!

Yes!

Well before I let you hear this quick minute long compilation of a few of the songs I wanted to explain why I took Finding Ground off Facebook….I know I did it once again. Facebook has gotten a lot more difficult to work with when it comes to pages and the new rules and regs are making me crazy. So going against the grain here….

I will bring Finding Ground Music back to Facebook because it really is a good tool, but I would like to put it on through a third party this time. I am so not good with social media, but I also know it really helps the music get to where it needs to go. So it will go back up once the third party becomes known to me….:).

Here it is enjoy this little shot into some of the songs!

As you might notice I went and changed my music name once again for the last time. This in the music business is quite a no-no. So let me explain why…..

I have met and worked with some amazing artists, producers, musicians and seen this music come together and still sit in wonder…..is this for real?

We have been in this adventure now for over two years. The words just seem to keep flowing out of my brain and the melodies are finding their ways into the minds and through the music of some incredible producers and composers. I am left in awe of how God is bringing this all together and working it out the way He wants it and in His time. I could not do this alone! Thus the final name change.

For me this really isn’t a dream come true, this is a calling. One that I am honored to answer. One that looks so different from others who are gifted and called to share with the world their music. I do not have the tools, the health, the voice, the knowledge, the energy or the know how to do this. When I am hit with a flare of up it takes me three months to get my air back into my lungs and if I try to stand up and sing well there goes my breath. So He is my strength….literally I need Him to be my breath so I can share the music He brings to my heart.

Finding Ground Music is so much more then just me….Rachel….it is made up of so many amazing people like my honey (Andrew), our producers out of Missouri, our musician friends and the ones who have inspired our love for music but have since found their way Home.

The name Finding Ground comes from the old song Edward Mote, My Hope is Build on Nothing Less. The verse “on Christ the solid rock I stand, all other ground is sinking sand” was the inspiration behind the name Finding Ground. My ground is Christ, my desire is for those who hear our music to find their ground in Christ alone.

My story was written in the album a Walk Through Me…..the album coming up will be different….fresh….and an experience. I can’t wait to get it out to you and show you what we have created.

One last thing…..with a band name I am going to need a band! If you build it they will come :)……..right!?