I have dealt with a lot of grief in my life…. At the age of 16 I found out my best friends from third grade has passed away after an accident. Over my life I can think of 10 friends or family whom I have lost already. Just recently I lost my father in law. […]
Loosing direction……singing my way back
There is this incredible song sung by the amazing Steffany Gretzinger, Sing My Way Back. If you haven’t heard it you should seriously check it out. This song has been my obsession lately because I have found myself in a slump or loss of direction. Being a human is hard sometimes….especially when you feel so […]
New Year, New Day, New Way
With a new year comes restoration. This is what God is showing me this early into the new year. When we started writing songs and singing again a little over two years ago I never thought I would have completed my story in song. Never! But its here and all glory to God. My story […]
Behind the song Tip Toe….homies!
“Their loyalty is divided between God and the world, and they are unstable in everything they do” (James 1:8). There once was a girl named Anna, meaning merciful, she grew up very similar to me. She lived on a farm and was raised in the church and had two brothers. Her parents were also divorced. […]
You Matter…..Here is why
You Matter is the one song in my album that is straight from the perspective of God. For so many years after the abuse I wanted to die. I would imagine it all the time….just not waking up, stopping my breath with a pillow, choking myself and so on. I hated me. I hated my […]
Behind the song Life Goes On
For some reason life did not stop the day I gained a big gray cloud of depression and loss of myself. It just kept going. We ended up moving to Arizona not long after and soon after that my parents divorced. By this time I had learned how to just keep swimming through life. Life […]
Behind my most difficult song to write…Little Light
The song Little Light is a hard one for me…..so I will take a different approach to tell you where this song came from. I will list the lyrics and give you a little behind the scenes as to where this stemmed from. I would like to let you know this may trigger you (as […]
Behind the Song – Fairytale Life
A Walk Through Me was written to share my story so I wanted to follow up with explaining each song. So here you go in this blog post I will be explaining Fairytale Life. Now……. Close your eyes and imagine green hills, farm land for miles and a quaint little white farm house under the […]
Behind the song The Search
Everyone from the beginning of time has been searching for something or someone bigger then them. There is a natural pull to this ‘thing’ from birth. A newborn baby comes out crying, needing. Totally helpless the newborn continues to cry until comforted by its mother or father. The baby needs the connection, comfort and sense […]
There she goes!
Thank you, Thank you to all of you who have listened, purchased and shared our music I am honored and so thrilled! I was asked yesterday if I was excited to get this album out….I proceeded to say “honestly it just feels like another day”. This is all a bit surreal. Never did I imagine […]
Expect the unexpected….
This album, A Walk Through Me, has been a lifetime in the making but when God called me to write my story I thought sure ok. Never did I think I would be putting it out to the world and as music!? But here we go…….it releases very soon and I am a bit scared! […]
Working out the kinks…
So it has been awhile, forgive me for dropping the ball and not recording this process better throughout the past few months. It is quite amazing what happens when you start to share your story with the whole world. The devil is quite good at bombarding you with doubts, fears and what ifs……he is not […]
Broken bodied but singing on…
I had the honor in serving on the worship team a few weeks ago, one of my most favorite things to do in the whole world actually. I love standing up and watching everyone sing to the Lord and just worship. There is something about music that gives you a freedom that nothing else could […]
Reflection on the past year (2017)
“We have no right to judge where we should be put, or to have preconceived notions as to what God is fitting us for. God engineers everything; wherever He puts us, our one great aim is to pour out a whole-hearted devotion to Him in that particular work. “Whatsoever thy hand findeth to do, do […]
We all have them….those things that make us cringe when we think about the possibilities. What if I get up there and just loose it? I am totally not the right person for this? He should have called someone else because I really stink at this type of ministry. We can come up with […]
Thankfulness for the new normals….
“For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven: a time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; a time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to […]
Being real when it isn’t cool…
I mentioned in my last post how important it is to me to be real with my music, my story and His calling for me. Being real in a world of fake cheese, fake hair, fake leather, fake meat, and even fake people; is so important! Things can be sugar coated, painted over, and fixed […]
Something that once defined me…..
Depression really did once define me. I was so lost in that fog that life was just something I had to fake; although some days I couldn’t even do that. I know there are many of you out there who walk through this fog today like I did for most of my life. It […]
Behind the song Insanity
Continuing with my story, my song Insanity stems from years of depression. From the time I was five I would ask God to take my life so I could be with Him instead of here on earth. So young and hurt so bad I wanted to die. These feelings and thoughts continued for 25 years […]
Behind the song Grafted In
Grafted In came together after we got home from picking up our daughter Haddie (Hadassah) after a very long adoption process from Hyderabad, India. Four and a half years to be exact! We waited and imagined the day we would finally meet her. So much anticipation and wonder. The first verse talks about this time […]